Thursday, March 20, 2008

A new tune for my soul to hum...

Sitting in the bed with Shadow at my feet and listening to Death Cab for Cutie and found my self humming along, and I started thinking...what a great song, I mean it IS DCC, right?
But it made me start longing to write a song and I was thinking about lyrics in my head and how some of them were cool and others sucked...and all the while wondering what someone else would think about them? Hmmm, what would someone else think of my song? Would they like the tune and want to sing along with me if it was ever birthed for an audience? Then it dawned on me how erroneous that was, it was/is after all MY song. It's my tune and here I was judging its quality by what others may or may not think about it rather than closing my eyes and allowing my heart and soul create a new melody...and it made me start to think about this symphony of life, and yes I think that is very proper description and not just a pretty analogy, the music we create in our conduct with the relationships around us. How much do we try to temper our tempo to match someone we may want to be seen similar to, or at least not stand out and maybe be looked on as an inadequate melody, lacking in our lyric and structure, and I wonder how much beauty is aborted out of insecurity.

While there is nothing wrong with humming along to the melody of another for a while, there comes times when my innermost being wants sing its own song, whether you enjoy the cacauphony or not:) So sing...so hummmmm...this is my concerto...